things that I always wanna do :|

I always sit alone at night on a bridge.I wonder..why?Is it fair for me?I dont care the cars passed by looking at me.I loved to be alone.I dont care whether I have a friends or not.Im tired thinking of all sort of problems.Its just mess up my head.


Looking down the bridge and say"if i could jump down this bridge.."..but I dont how its feel after I jump and splash into the water..Is it painful?Is it calm?Is it I can run from problems?Tried to throw the bottle in the water and the bottle sink..Am I gonna be same just like the bottle?Sink in the water?and no one know about me?


Is it everyone wish to have a problem?Do they do like i do?Is it they run from problems with this method?Did they standing on a rail and wait to get hit by train?or they cross the road slowly so they can get hit by the car?or they hang their self?or shot their self?


Im getting confused with my self.Just like im going mad now.I am?